Okay, so I am feeling a bunch of feelings right now. First news in the business, school starts in about a week; however, I have so much to accomplish beforehand. I have to try to get my permit, ACT, summer assignment, shopping, and b-ball. I still haven't decided if I wanted to play or not. I felt closure with boys though. Seriously, fuck them!!! I finally realized that this crush I have had for three years was stupid and he disrespected me :( At this point, I don't want to hang out anywhere near boys and shit because it is just drama. They always talk about the girl being a good girl who is loyal, caring, smart, independent and all that but it is all bullshit. Now, I'm not even focused on the boys. It is all about trying to get into a good college.

Peace,
Mrs. Coedine

I feel Good

I feel good. I wish the feeling would last forever but we all know that is impossible. It is as simple as that! :)

Boys

It is difficult sometimes to think that there is something wrong with you. I have dealt with a lot of insecurities but nobody knew that because I did a damn good job hiding it. Behind the smile and the bubbly personality lied a lonely girl who felt like she was worthless. She wanted to be loved just like Cinderella or Snow White but she learned that love like that is nonexistent especially between a black man. It hurt everytime that she was rejected and she felt that there was not a prince charming. On July 8,2010, this girl said fuck the boys. For real, guys at this age are a bunch of liars who just want to have sex and brag about it. Thank God I never fell for the sex part though I almost did @ the Towne Center. I told God that from that day foward, I would never do something like that again though if it occured again, she may take it. I want to love the skin I am in because that is how you can deal with the shit in life but honestly, I can't fuckin do that with the fucking guys who are fucking assholes. Maybe I should become a nun? No, I don't want to do something like that. Anyways, I feel a bit hurt and what not sooooo yeah.

Fucking Bored Ass Hell!!!

I am fucking bored out of my fucking mind. I just want to party and dance my ass off. I don't care if I don't get any guys besides, guys are liars anyways. If anybody knows of a good party, holla at me please!!!

10 Facts About Me

1. I am bisexual. I had a feeling that I was since I was fifteen but it was confirmed on December 29, 2009.
2. I am Black and proud to be. I don't let my race define who I am but it is a part of me. I love being black despite all the shit you have to go through. Black is beautiful bitches and whoever claimed that we are undesirable, they are fucking haters!!!
3. I am a bit weird.
4. I am very pensive. I am always daydreaming.
5. I like to listen to all music and my favorite artist is Corinne Bailey Rae!!! <3
6. I love to eat hotdogs with white rice and gravy.
7. I love Chipotle. That is what I will eat when I eat out.
8. I love my friends.
9. I love my family.
10. I love God and He loves me!!! <3

Hello

This is the new chapter in my life where I will discover more about myself. Hello, my name is Marcia Adams but you can call me CiCi. In my life, I let people dictate what I do and what I say but fuck it. I felt really depressed and suicidal throughout my life, but I got sick and tired of constantly being in that state of mind. I knew that from the guidance of God that I had to do something about it so I made a couple of changes so far and even though they were very hard decisions to do, I can say now that I am truly happy that I made them. Anyways, going back to the present, I am starting my journey to be happy in life which started on July 8 2010 after I was shocked that I received a four on my APUSH Test. I had never felt this amazing feeling beforehand and that is fucking sad. People have tried to screw my life over but not this time. At the end, I win and they lose. HA!!