Boys

It is difficult sometimes to think that there is something wrong with you. I have dealt with a lot of insecurities but nobody knew that because I did a damn good job hiding it. Behind the smile and the bubbly personality lied a lonely girl who felt like she was worthless. She wanted to be loved just like Cinderella or Snow White but she learned that love like that is nonexistent especially between a black man. It hurt everytime that she was rejected and she felt that there was not a prince charming. On July 8,2010, this girl said fuck the boys. For real, guys at this age are a bunch of liars who just want to have sex and brag about it. Thank God I never fell for the sex part though I almost did @ the Towne Center. I told God that from that day foward, I would never do something like that again though if it occured again, she may take it. I want to love the skin I am in because that is how you can deal with the shit in life but honestly, I can't fuckin do that with the fucking guys who are fucking assholes. Maybe I should become a nun? No, I don't want to do something like that. Anyways, I feel a bit hurt and what not sooooo yeah.