I feel Good

I feel good. I wish the feeling would last forever but we all know that is impossible. It is as simple as that! :)

Boys

It is difficult sometimes to think that there is something wrong with you. I have dealt with a lot of insecurities but nobody knew that because I did a damn good job hiding it. Behind the smile and the bubbly personality lied a lonely girl who felt like she was worthless. She wanted to be loved just like Cinderella or Snow White but she learned that love like that is nonexistent especially between a black man. It hurt everytime that she was rejected and she felt that there was not a prince charming. On July 8,2010, this girl said fuck the boys. For real, guys at this age are a bunch of liars who just want to have sex and brag about it. Thank God I never fell for the sex part though I almost did @ the Towne Center. I told God that from that day foward, I would never do something like that again though if it occured again, she may take it. I want to love the skin I am in because that is how you can deal with the shit in life but honestly, I can't fuckin do that with the fucking guys who are fucking assholes. Maybe I should become a nun? No, I don't want to do something like that. Anyways, I feel a bit hurt and what not sooooo yeah.

Fucking Bored Ass Hell!!!

I am fucking bored out of my fucking mind. I just want to party and dance my ass off. I don't care if I don't get any guys besides, guys are liars anyways. If anybody knows of a good party, holla at me please!!!

10 Facts About Me

1. I am bisexual. I had a feeling that I was since I was fifteen but it was confirmed on December 29, 2009.
2. I am Black and proud to be. I don't let my race define who I am but it is a part of me. I love being black despite all the shit you have to go through. Black is beautiful bitches and whoever claimed that we are undesirable, they are fucking haters!!!
3. I am a bit weird.
4. I am very pensive. I am always daydreaming.
5. I like to listen to all music and my favorite artist is Corinne Bailey Rae!!! <3
6. I love to eat hotdogs with white rice and gravy.
7. I love Chipotle. That is what I will eat when I eat out.
8. I love my friends.
9. I love my family.
10. I love God and He loves me!!! <3

Hello

This is the new chapter in my life where I will discover more about myself. Hello, my name is Marcia Adams but you can call me CiCi. In my life, I let people dictate what I do and what I say but fuck it. I felt really depressed and suicidal throughout my life, but I got sick and tired of constantly being in that state of mind. I knew that from the guidance of God that I had to do something about it so I made a couple of changes so far and even though they were very hard decisions to do, I can say now that I am truly happy that I made them. Anyways, going back to the present, I am starting my journey to be happy in life which started on July 8 2010 after I was shocked that I received a four on my APUSH Test. I had never felt this amazing feeling beforehand and that is fucking sad. People have tried to screw my life over but not this time. At the end, I win and they lose. HA!!